JerseyLette4Ever

same shit as always the phone will ring but no one's there sometimes i think i should stop trying because you can't force someone to care i wish i could tell you all my secrets but you won't care, so never mind the blood drips down between my fingers it hurts and yet i feel no pain this useless blood it flows so freely do you really care please tell me truly

why do i spend nights crying when it's clear you'll never care i wish you could feel the pain you've caused me then even you'd say it wasn't fair none of it matters i can't turn back the clock whilst inside my chest my heart feels like a rock

it feels like the best  and worst thing ever when they smile and say your name, you get the biggest grin but your eyes fill with tears your heart sings as another piece of it dies its like riding the biggest wave ever just as it grinds your body against the rocks you want to sing but you can't breathe you want to take them in your arms and breathe them in and never let them go but at the same time you want to turn and run as far and as fast as you can its like wanting to touch the sun: it'll be the death of you but you still want it the question is what do you do now? do you go on and pretend it doesn't hurt you until you're dead insi